I live on worry, fear and anxiety, it seems. Now that I’m trying this new, worry free, way of living, I see my weakness in this area clearly.
I literally don’t know what to do if I’m not worrying about something.
I wake up and worry about what I’m going to eat, what I’m going to wear and all the things that I might do for the day. Worry is my reason for getting up in the morning, go figure.
Today during meditation, I tried to put down all thoughts of worry and then I started worrying about not worrying. Ahhhhhhh.
So, indeed, this is a problem. This too must be faced. I’ve never faced Giants this big before.
However, I will give this a fair shot. I will continue for the rest of the year. I think a secret of getting out of a worrisome mindset is surrender. Surrender to the Infinite. It seems that I worry because I expect things to go a certain way.
I have certain expectations in life that I have created for myself and those expectations given to me (by parents, friends, society, the system…Etc.). If these ingrained outcomes aren’t realized, I worry.
So I just have to trust The Infinite, The Source. But, of course, this is easier said than done. This means I have to get rid of all those previously held expectations and start over clean. Like a baby.
I have to unlearn all the nonsense I’ve picked up over the aeons. Love and Truth are enough.