Day 132

Fear, depression and more fear. These two torrents flow through me continuously. Sometimes separately sometimes together. They’ve been here for some time now and I realize that they aren’t going anywhere anytime soon. 

Last night was my breaking point. You guys win! I’m not only going allow you to stay, but I’ll e peaceful about it. I now realize that you are a natural part of life in this world. 

I realize that I have to accept all experiences in this life. It seems to me that fear and depression are part of the learning in this plane of existence.  

Meditation has become the rock that keeps me grounded. Reminding me that this is school, I’m here to learn. The tree of the knowledge of Good and Evil is exactly what its name expresses.

I have to experience both…But how to accept negative experience the same way that I accept positive experience? I guess the answer will only come with time…And lots of negative experience…Lol 😑

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